he news came in the door at 5:00, borne by the first students
arriving to my English 1092 class, Honors Literature and Composition.
A shooting at NIU, had I heard about it?
I hadn't, but NIU is up in De Kalb,
only a four-hour drive from here. Some of my freshmen would
have friends there, would have visited the campus, would have
applied the year before and been accepted or rejected. The young
faces settling into desks in front of me did not seem unduly
disturbed, but who really knew? Did I detect more glances than
usual at the door and the second-floor windows? We never lock
the door, and the windows open so slightly that only a contortionist
could wriggle through and dive out, down into the prickly shrubbery
below. Better to take your chances holding very, very still,
while the moron with the rifle chooses someone else.
That classroom has pretty
good computer equipment. I turned on the display, googled "NIU,"
and there we had it: the story almost in real-time. Eerily,
it had happened in Cole Hall; our own ugly and dysfunctional
building is called Coleman Hall. Around 3:00, it seemed, the
gunman entered a crowded Ocean Sciences lecture from the stage
side, like a guest on Leno, and began firing his shotgun into
the audience. In about the time it takes to tell it (no doubt),
he injured sixteen students, killed five, and took his own life.
The shooter died with plenty of ammunition
left and one of three pistols still undrawn, and this was counted
greatly to the credit of campus security, as were the casualty
figures, modest compared to Columbine, say, or Virginia Tech.
The press always number the dead at such moments, using them
to measure the scale of the catastrophe. I tend to think of
the injured: the lives of rehab and pain, of helpless rage against
a body that will never again be what it was. At least one of
the sixteen died the next day, before the rest dropped from
view. Will next year's think pieces refer to "the six dead
in 2008's NIU shooting" - or the seven?
Some kind of discussion seemed called
for, in our class there in Coleman. But I am not good without
notes, and in this case there was the added distraction, known
about if not exactly seen, of the bodies still lukewarm, the
fresh blood leaking from wounds still under the surgeon's knife.
What I managed was a threadbare liberal riff. I remarked that
dangerous, disturbed young men exist everywhere, but that our
society seems unique in (a) its insistence that such specimens
be equipped with state-of-the-art weaponry, and (b) its maintenance
of a popular culture that implicitly encourages and validates
the deeds of the shooters.
I said some unkind things
about the Burma Shave–style ads along I-57 and IL-130
north of town, placed there by an outfit called GunsSaveLife.com
to celebrate the eternal fantasy of upright folk blowing holes
in the bad guys. We managed a shaky laugh at "Never worry
/ Thugs won't attack / If the teacher / Might shoot back."
We found the core proposition there quite doubtful: if you are
preparing to kill yourself this afternoon anyway, an
armed grammarian in bifocals is not much of a deterrent. On
the other hand, accidents seemed quite likely, if my usual fumbling
at the instructor's station was any sign.
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Then I recalled the cover
that Time ran in the wake of the Columbine shootings.
Ever eager to deplore violence and inform the citizenry, the
magazine arranged the faces of the victims all around the edges,
in black and white like the statistics they had abruptly become,
while the shooters, Dylan and Klebold, gleamed in glowing color
at the center, three times larger, enjoying precisely the immortality
they had sought.
After that, we got back
to Hamlet. This was in every way a better response,
because literature knows better than to treat life and death
as data points in a political analysis. It remembers the terrible
intimacy and absoluteness of one's own life, one's own death.
In the midst of disaster, the question of questions, after all,
is not, "How can society better prevent such harm?"
but "What if it had been me?" Or "How will I
face it when my time comes?" You can't do better than Shakespeare,
if that is what you are wondering.
But I cannot shake my sense
that our ability to tune right in to the slaughter, savoring
it almost as it happened, is at the heart of everything. Such
acts of "random violence" are anything but random
these days. They have become business as usual, predictable
products that roll off the end of the socio--cultural assembly
line every so often. The shooters' contempt for life, their
monstrous egocentricity, sometimes looks like an all-too-logical
result of acculturation in the pleasure-dome of postmodern America.
On the one hand, commercial voices continuously affirm the sovereignty
of the Id ("repressive desublimation," Herbert Marcuse
called it) while denouncing every impulse toward self-regulation;
on the other, we all regularly feast on high-quality images
of bodies being beaten, broken, cut, shot, mutilated, and blown
to bits, counting this as good clean fun and everyone's natural
right. If you squirm at the super-sized portions of mayhem,
you are as out of it as the Amish, trotting along in their buggies.
It's hard to turn from this cultural
context to the evening news without at least a passing sense
of complicity, a feeling that thrill killings and grudge killings
are part of what society has collectively willed. At what point
does honest concern over the Columbine or DC shootings, say,
become perverse sensationalism, culpable, part of the deep structure
of the deed itself? It's impossible to say; but no one can deny
that glory ranks high among the mass killer's motives. There
is a feedback loop here that needs to be questioned: the nutjob
does it because he knows we are watching. These days we are
all paparazzi, no longer just reporting or reading the story
but caught up in it, making it happen.
In absolute terms, the crisis
is probably not grave. Compared to even a third-rate famine,
plague, war, or pogrom, Virginia Tech still looks like a day
in the park, barring the statistically unlikely possibility
that you are one of the victims. An old-style moralist or a
newfangled sociobiologist can shrug his shoulders over it: Well,
there's the human capacity for violence, doing what it does.
But it is the terrible gratuitousness of these postmodern mass
killings, their obscene lack of motive, that stirs a bone-deep
revulsion. What they threaten is not so much our physical security
as our faith that such security means anything, that it is,
in the end, much worth having. Terrorists minus the faith, minus
the cause, the crazies are not in most cases noticeably unfortunate
or in much pain. But they seem to have looked at what life can
offer — modern American life, anyway — and decided
to skip it. The ultimate nihilists, taking our ethic of cool
to the imaginable extreme, they seem to offer no reason for
their acts beyond Why not?
My college town is also
a rural town, and whenever a mass killing unfolds in the national
news, it is followed, as the night the day, by letters to the
local paper reminding us not to blame "law-abiding gun
owners" for the deeds of isolated lunatics. To say that
I regard these as disingenuous would understate the case by
a country mile. To be fair, there does seem to be some evidence
that concealed-carry laws deter street crime. But standing where
I am, too close to ground zero, I am in no mood to be fair.
I note that beneath the dreams of shooting home invaders (the
kind who phone ahead so that you have time to get the Uzi out
of its locked cabinet) or the government (imagined as George
II or Adolph Hitler returning from the dead), something more
primal is at work. Whatever else it may be, the Second Amendment,
these days, is demonstrably a suicide fantasy, tricked out in
Enlightenment rhetoric of checks and balances. You can have
my rifle when you pry it from my cold, dead fingers, runs
the slogan. What comfort there is, what assurance, in that bitter
vision of oneself, dead but unvanquished! Don't Tread on
Me! Nemo impune me lacessit. Redneck Prozac. The thing
guaranteed is not law and order or anything like it, but a sort
of bottom-line existential dignity. If everything in your life
goes to hell, you can still check out in a blaze of automatic
gunfire, taking five or ten of the bastards with you.
We are living the reality we have
chosen, in other words. The shooter in the classroom or library
or city council chamber is not just collateral damage, the tragic
cost of proud freedoms. He is the thing itself, the essence
of what was sought in the first place. The incarnation at once
of our ennui and our rebellion, our self-disgust and our boundless
solipsism.
Call me paranoid if you
like. But I find it, further, no accident that classrooms have
so far been the favorite targets of the self-appointed Rambos
and kamikazes, rather than movie theaters, say, or sports stadiums.
Dedicated as it is to the patient, often tedious pursuit of
rational solutions, and to concomitant values like mutual respect,
self-restraint, and reasonable compromise, the classroom is
the quintessence of everything the psycho rejects. Foreclosure
of debate, of inquiry and analysis and hateful complexity, is
the crux of everything his twisted fantasies aim for. He is
right that we are his worst enemies. Everyone just shut
up! Shut up, now! No more useless talk, just action, action
of the purest, most pointless kind.
So on balance I feel better
and better that we got back to Hamlet that day. The
discussion was not one of our best, and seemed at first a pretty
puny response to the real-life carnage unfolding elsewhere.
It would have made a boring movie. But in the long run, such
discussions are precisely the most effective and necessary line
of defense, far more important and on point than planning evacuation
routes and so forth — or even than better gun control.
For it is perfectly true that "people kill people,"
and the fact that they invariably, these days, do so with
guns is secondary. What matters most is intention, the
homicidal nihilism that is always an option in the psychological
repertoire of Homo sapiens. There is never any guarantee
that talk, mere talk, will restrain or divert this. But what
else is there?
In retrospect, even our choice of
reading seems fortuitous. Literary tragedy is among the oldest
of secular attempts to find the meaning of life in view of mortality.
Tabling the cheery but doubtful prospect of an afterlife, it
confronts the bleak certainties of suffering, sorrow, and death,
and tries to formulate a response short of despair. The measure
of its success is that we now reflexively use what was once
the name of a literary genre — tragedy, the old Greek
"goat-song" — to describe everything that most
baffles and frightens and hurts us. To call something "tragic"
is to invoke, by way of comfort, that mysterious beauty that
old writers found in loss and suffering.
The popular art of our day,
and no doubt that of others, merely exploits violence, feeding
a routine meal to a dark appetite. But tragedy in the full sense,
the true sense, seeks decisive transcendence. It is premised
on what Aristotle called catharsis: an exorcism of
passion rather than its blind discharge in acts of real hurt;
an elevating release, "calm of mind, all passion spent,"
in place of the atavistic explosion that is always more easily
achieved.
So if one day the psycho
shooter comes to my door, I know exactly what I must do. Invite
him to take a chair. Then go right on talking, till the last
possible instant.